Left Over John Thoughts

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(From the vidding process)

1. I'm of the opinion that John never actually tried to kill Helen until "Haunted". I also think that was the first time he ever hit her.

[I'm saying it now because I think it might be disproved in an upcoming episode, and I'm not sure how I feel about that.]

1a. I'm also reasonably sure that the only reason John tries to kill her in "Haunted" is because he actually believes she'll kill him first.

1b. I am less sure about how that works. I mean, I think he avoided her a lot so as to not kill her, and that in the early days, he wrestled with the Energy Being a lot in order to prevent hurting her? But I'm not sure if that's practical.

1c. This plays into Helen's guilt as well, if she realizes on some level that John killed other people in order to not kill her.

1d. I have no idea what "We'll being our dance anew"; "Count on it" is supposed to mean. Has she been chasing him? Tracking him? What, exactly, is the meaning of "dance"? They're a bit...chummy in FK&C. All "Darling" and going for walks by themselves in the dark. I don't know.

2. I am nearly positive that John tried to kill James at least once over the years.

3. I might vid Clara again, just to prove a point, if I ever find a good song for her.

4. John's story is not about healing. James's story is not about catching the bad guy. Nigel's story is not about disappearing. Nikola's story is not about scientific progress. Helen's story is not about learning. The story, the really amazing thing about the story, is that none of them ever change. They just keep going. And sometimes they die. And sometimes they don't.

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Comments

[shadadukal]

John never actually tried to kill Helen until "Haunted"

I agree.

I also think that was the first time he ever hit her.

I need to think about that. And not because of anything that might happen in upcoming episodes.

I'm also reasonably sure that the only reason John tries to kill her in "Haunted" is because he actually believes she'll kill him first.

Absolutely!

I have no idea what "We'll being our dance anew"; "Count on it" is supposed to mean. Has she been chasing him? Tracking him? What, exactly, is the meaning of "dance"? They're a bit...chummy in FK&C. All "Darling" and going for walks by themselves in the dark. I don't know.

I'm not exactly sure what to think of those lines. The darling is ironic from John I think. She doesn't actually call him that, does she? Going for walks is weird, but maybe it can be explained away as they're looking for Worth... Yeah, it doesn't look like it to me either. :P

I am nearly positive that John tried to kill James at least once over the years.

I need to think about that one too. Maybe he did because the energy being demanded someone close to him and John lost the fight but still managed to point it in James's direction rather than going after Helen.

I might vid Clara again, just to prove a point, if I ever find a good song for her.

Yes, please. No song called "Invisible Girl"? ;)

John's story is not about healing. James's story is not about catching the bad guy. Nigel's story is not about disappearing. Nikola's story is not about scientific progress. Helen's story is not about learning. The story, the really amazing thing about the story, is that none of them ever change. They just keep going. And sometimes they die. And sometimes they don't.

Need to think about that too. Today is not a day for thinking. :P

[artaxastra.livejournal.com]

I definitely think John tried to goad Helen into killing him. That he wants her to, he expects her to, and that expression just before he turns is resignation. It's come down to this as he always thought it would. And then he throws the knife wide and misses by a mile. I mean, for heaven's sake! I could have done better than that! He's throwing it away, getting it out of his hands.